Thursday, April 29, 2010

Hearts Heal in Time…

  

  

I’m still pretty numb to my emotions.  Lows are tempting and the highs feel just out of reach. My love for my wife, daughter and son have deepened and my love for our Doby-mix Annie  has also taken deeper root.

It’s ok to hurt now.

On to today; PT went good this morning and then following that we went back home and then my dear friend and mentor Art Yeap came by and took me to lunch nearby.   CC came and met us at The Habit in Citrus Heights/Fair Oaks for lunch and we were blessed by his heart, spirit and words.  Art is a gift to those who know him and I count myself richly blessed.

Following lunch, CC and I headed out to pick up kids from the schools and run them to their homes (2 other families in addition to ours) and it was during the final leg of this run that I began to fade.  Couldn’t really move my legs after sitting as long as I had and then down went the eyelids.  The hit ended up not a bad one, but my body was exhausted and I think that was a key contributor to the attack.

I was reading an email earlier today and it does a good job of speaking more  basically regarding HKPP so I’m going to close out with a quote of part of the email here but not include the name of the writer until I get their permission to include it.  Just know that I didn’t write it.

The symptoms of PP are caused by the fluctuation of serum K+ which then affects muscle tone, *but* hypokalemia - in general - affects every neuronal junction in the body, as potassium is one of the two charged cations that "fire up" the electrical grid that our cells operate on.

You might think of this as a dimmable light switch, one of the dial- types, with an infinite number of settings. It will handle a 100 watt bulb, but let's say we only had a 50 watt bulb in the drawer, so we stuck that in the socket.

So, the mark straight up means potassium is at a normal level. When you turn the dial down (dim the lights) you are actually *increasing* the resistance to the flow of electrons in the wire. That's just what happens when K+ ions drop in the blood serum. Cell membranes ALL over the body increase their resistance and become more resistant to stimulation. The muscles get weaker, because the stimulation can't overcome that resistance. In the brain, low K+ causes reduced reaction time, less reaction, a "dimming" of the normal emotional responses.

If you turn the dial UP the light gets brighter because electrons flow more easily, resistance to stimulation is reduced. Just the same in us. Too much K+ in the serum causes the ion gates to become too sensitive to stimulation. They contract too vigorously, or too often, and become weakened. If the dial is turned too high the light bulb pops. In HyperKPP or PMC this is the point where weakness becomes paralysis. The muscle packs up and says, "No more until you get this wiring problem worked out!"

Fluctuations in K+ don't just affect the skeletal muscle, they affect every cell and organ, because we literally run off a power grid created by the movement of sodium and potassium ions in our cells.

And while the PPs are loosely grouped with the neuromuscular disorders, the brain has nothing to do with creating the symptoms.

 

Peace

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

End of an Era with Loss in Our Hearts

 

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Shadow Cat Odum

(September, 1989 ~ April 26, 2010)

Today is Monday, April 26, 2010

Our hearts began to openly break while we stood in the vet’s office and heard the words, that our beloved Shadow cat, whom we’ve had for nearly 21 years, since she was a little grey kitten, has at best a 05% chance of rebounding from a blood clot located at the arterial split for the blood flow to the hind legs and quarters.   

She tried to walk but would end up dragging her back-half of her body by pulling herself forward with her front legs. 

 

CC and I had as good a quality time with her as we could have hoped for and that helped…but we knew after talking to our most favorite and trusted vet, Dr. Arbios, that we could no longer save her or protect her from her death.  God blessed us even as we shared our breaking hearts with each other and reminded us that she is not dying in great pain or showing signs of sufferings which certainly would be expected when encountering a cat of her age with her known medical issues that we’ve been treating on a daily basis.

Shadow went to sleep in CC’s arms and CC cuddled her until she was fully asleep, then Dr. Arbios came in and carried her to another part of the clinic where she would be given the second shot. 

Some of the staff came in and gave us hugs and consoled us before we left with an empty cat carrier.

My emotional fabric has the consistency of a cobweb; many of you know this already.

Your prayers and thoughts are not unlike life-changing food for the starving, that strengthens them, nourishes them and brings them a lift in their spirit.  We have been weakened and our hearts have been broken.

peace.

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Thursday Night…

 

I have a closed/blocked right tear duct and have been referred to a Surgery clinic to resolve the issue.  The biggest issue at the moment is a migraine since Saturday.  The two pain shot injections (After Hours Clinic on Sunday and ER on Monday ) were very helpful, but they didn’t break the cycle. 

We saw an Ophthalmologist on Tuesday who tried a few times to irrigate the tear duct, but the efforts were unsuccessful and were pretty stressful for me. I’m doing better at home; sleeping alright, but once I get up and as the day progresses, the migraine increases.  Doing computer work (yeah, like posting a blog…), watching TV, reading, light, sound and movement all tend to escalate it. The antibiotics for the eye should resolve some of that pain and hopefully the migraine will end soon. 

Earlier today, I felt a burning sensation at the opening of the tear duct and noticed some an off-yellow substance at the opening and after cleaning that away, the “bump” blockage felt much smaller.  It’s not gone, but it is certainly better. 

Thank you so very much for your prayers.

The goal now is to vanquish the migraine, and if possible, figure out what exactly caused it.

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And now…

some pics of Joshua’s 5th grade float:

 

 

 

Just finished at doc appt.

Just finished at doc appt. Migraign walking all over me. picking up meds to break it.

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Update

 

 

  I saw the eye doc yesterday and he tried to flush the tear duct but the blockage/infection is not moving, so we are now headed towards surgery to remove the blockage.  I now know what migraines feel like and that sucks big time.  Reading, watching tv, light and loud sounds all make this whole thing worse.

Prayers are coveted and welcomed big-time.

 

I’m sorry I haven’t been in contact with anyone; I’m not much for legit conversation at this point, right now.  Please forgive my silence.

 

Hopefully this will get better asap.

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Currently fighting migrains brought on

Currently fighting migrains brought on by a trarduct infection. Staying down.

Still down today with an

Still down today with an eye/tearduct infection. Having to read and write using my left eye. This sucks.

Sunday, April 18, 2010

Late Night Question and Prayer Request

 

 

So, here’s a question I just had to have answered before I can finally go to sleep…

 

“When do you use i.e., and when do you use e.g., and what do they mean?

 

Answer: (from About.com at http://ancienthistory.about.com/od/abbreviations/f/ievseg.htm)

The Latin abbreviations "i.e." and "e.g." come up very frequently in writing and would probably come up more often if people were more sure of when it is right to use "i.e." and when "e.g." is required.

Ø i.e.

"I.e." stands simply for "that is," which written out fully in Latin is 'id est'.

"I.e." is used in place of "in other words," or "it/that is."

It specifies or makes more clear.

Ø e.g.

"E.g." means "for example" and comes from the Latin expression exempli gratia, "for the sake of an example," with the noun exemplum in the genitive (possessive case) to go with gratia in the ablative (prepositional case).

"E.g." is used in expressions similar to "including," when you are not intending to list everything that is being discussed.

 

 

Okay, on to reality.

Every year or so, I manage to acquire a tearduct infection in my right eye and guess what’s kicking my butt without a rest…?This one hurts SO much more than any of the other ones and is affecting more than just the tearduct opening itself; we’re talking vision is getting impaired in my right eye, the tissue all around my eye, eye brow and skin on my forehead is painful to the touch.  I ended up in an attack tonight because of the pain and muscle locks that were happening due to the pain.  If ever I wondered if the enemy attacks us when we are down and while we are beginning or in process of God’s work, start the presses and send this to print because it’s a fact.

 

Speaking of attacks and thus battles, this battle is done with me for tonight.  Body’s hurting too much to continue to sit and try and type using one uninfected but slightly blurry eye.

 

I’m praying for His miracle to remove this infection, in the name of Jesus.

I covet your prayers-

peace

w

 

Thursday, April 15, 2010

Issues and Victories

As the title suggests, recent memory is a collage of both issues and victories.  For now, the issues are more visible because they interrupt my enjoyment of even the little things.  Currently, I’m at my desk typing these thoughts and becoming distracted by leg and thigh pain that have been very present all day.  I took a hit while at PT this morning and had to be helped out and into the car thanks to an attack while on the PT table.  Since then, I can only walk with the use of 2 canes or the walker, so I’m choosing the 2 canes for now, though they make my arms fatigue faster.

Last night, while at Joshua’s Open House at school, I took another hit but CC got me to the car before it locked on to me and took me down.  I remember saying to CC that I feel like a prisoner.  That’s how I feel today, too.  It makes me SO angry and there is nothing I can do to prevent it, in totality.  I can watch my diet, body temp, glucose levels and on and on, but I can do nothing to prevent these hits from happening.

So frustrating.

…More later-

Thursday, April 08, 2010

After Easter 2010

 

Well, it's been quite a while since I've posted once again and there's much that's gone on over the past 3 to 4 months that could use some explaining, however, the majority of all of that does not belong on here because it involves other people. So, suffice it to say that Easter has come and gone and the Odum family in Orangevale is returning to some semblance of normal following a week long spring break for both kids.

Okay, new rant, yet brief: is there any logic, WHAT SO EVER, to youths and young adult males still wearing their pants at or below their butt line, so that when they walk one hand must always be holding onto their pants so that they don't fall completely off?? I truly, truly, truly did not get it! All right, I'll do my best to stop there and try and let it go for the day. GAHHH!!!!!!

I was noting today, while looking around on YouTube.com that there are hardly any elaborative or definitive videos of people suffering from HKPP attacks. I found only one and it appears to be far more of a joke with the attacks seeming like some kind of punch line, rather than it being a beneficial video to somebody wondering if they are contending with neuromuscular attacks such as HKPP. Actually when I watched the video, I ended up more frustrated by what I saw them I did encouraged that there were was a video on YouTube entitled HKPP or Periodic Paralysis. So, what this brings me to, is feeling strongly that I should be videotaping my attacks as often as we are able to catch them on video, but not attacks where I'm not moving because that shows nothing to the viewer, in my opinion. What I'm finally at the point of wanting people to see, and recognize is that this disease manifests itself in a variety of different physical ways and unfortunately for me, but possibly fortunately for those who would view any of the videos, I suffer from a variety of attack manifestations, most of which are very apparent to the eye and I think would be helpful to have on tape. Some of the videos that I had seen on YouTube shows a person simply not moving for 30 or so seconds, and for me, that shows me only that a person can stay still for that amount of time rather than describing what's going on to the person in the video, so that's kind of where my head is right now. We have a Sony digital camcorder that we do all of our video recording on, but I am no longer able to locate the software install disk which will allow my computer to recognize the camera, so if anyone reading this has some constructive suggestions as to how I can remedy that problem without having to spend the money on buying another software package from Sony, please, please share it with me.

Now, as far as attacks go over the past 3 to 4 months, they have been nearly daily; ranging from full body “rag doll” paralysis to localized appendage paralysis, full body muscle spasms in a cyclical manner to full body “lockup” paralysis. Only in the past of weeks have I felt that I'm gaining ground back again, with much of that, in part, due to Mark McCoy and his Physical Therapy Clinic. The last attack was two days ago, Tuesday, shortly after helping CC cut off one of the branches on one of our backyard trees. I didn't feel it was very much effort at all, but CC told me later that she could see in my eyes and in my posture, that the attack was imminent. Very shortly after cutting the branch, I went back inside and sat down in my black chair and within a matter of minutes, I was down for the next four hours; unable to get up, speak and move.

I think it's also worth sharing that on Easter Sunday, I ended up having two attacks, hours apart from each other, but that following each of these attacks, my body rebounded in a matter of minutes after I was able to drink two or three doses of potassium each time. It will never get old to me and it will never be unimportant, to share that the biggest difference, in terms of having a better quality of life, was when we attended the 2009 Periodic Paralysis Conference in Orlando, Florida and we learned that the method of potassium treatment that we had been using since my diagnosis, was at best 7% to 10% effective in raising my potassium levels every time. We had no idea that the method of combining Apple juice with 25 mEq of liquid potassium was counter-effective, but it made all kinds of sense once it was explained to us and we were then able to understand why it would take me so very long to recover from my attacks. I'm not sure how many people read this or how many people remember how long my attacks were back in 2006 and 2007, but I would have attacks that would leave me bedridden for sometimes weeks at a time and I had to have home healthcare come to our house 2 to 3 times a week to run my labs and determine whether or not I needed to be admitted to the hospital to jumpstart the recovery. All of that has changed. All of it. At the conference, we were given the opportunity to try another form of potassium during one of my attacks, and the speed at which I recovered was astounding. If there is anyone out there who is battling a similar or same battle to mine, and your primary method of addressing your low potassium is with liquid potassium, then I would greatly encourage you to ask your doctor if you could try the Effer-K 25 mEq effervescent tablets. The reality that my attacks sometimes last hours is still a welcomed change to what, in my past, have been days, not hours. I think that there is another critical factor in terms of my faster recovery rate, and that is the weekly muscle stretching and massage attention that comes from my attending physical therapy twice a week. It's not a matter of only muscle stretching and weight conditioning nor is it only massage in the muscles but it is the combination that is helping to mitigate the muscle damage that I experience from each and every hit. That's something that a lot of people don't talk about when they get into discussions of HKPP as well as other forms of periodic paralysis, and that is that the muscles that are being affected by the leakage in the Channelopathy at the cellular level, are being permanently damaged with each attack, so, the better condition the muscle can be in prior to the attack, the less the damage and, to an extent, the quicker the recovery.

Well, it would appear that I have more on my mind than I thought... I hope all this make sense, but if it doesn't, that's okay.

Today has been a very, very full day and I am wiped out tired, so I'm going to post this and go and lay down for the remainder of the day/evening. As always, your prayers are coveted and your encouraging thoughts are warmly received.

Peace.

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