Tuesday, June 12, 2007

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

I’ve let time go for quite some time now and feel badly that I’ve not kept up better on here, but the blessed news from this is that I’ve NOT been in the hospital or down sick during this absence, but have been living what I would term “near-normal” life. I’ve lost my bearings on really knowing what “normal” is, so I’m working from what I can feel comfortable with and each day hope/pray that I will have a good day and not relent to depression or pain.

We went down to the Bay Area this past Friday/Saturday for my nephew’s graduation from 8th grade. We didn’t have enough time with them but the time we had was really good. Congrats Erik! We also had the chance to check out a recording of him singing in a band he and his friends put together for a talent show, or similar and he fronted it as vocalist. I was very impressed. Very cool.

Slightly worthy of note; CC’s mom, Nana, moved out to an assisted living place near CC’s brother’s home last week. We’ve had her living with us since she was released from the hospital in the South Bay with little expectation she would live through the following next months and we are now into year number four. With her move, my parents came up and helped us with cleaning and stripping what will now be Joshua’s room. He’s excited but concerned at the prospect of having to sleep in a room himself. He doesn’t remember that he had that opportunity back when we moved up here for the first few months we were here.

In order to see if I could “right” my head and thought processes, I went and bought 3 bible studies which I then moved from location to location without opening for 3 or 4 weeks until a week and a half ago I began one by Max Lucado called managing your giants (a study of 1st Samuel; David and Goliath, etc.) and another one on Ruth and Esther who are folks from the Bible who Missy really wanted to learn about, so we began it together as well, but have only gotten into it one chapter so far. Maybe tomorrow…I bought another one on Ephesians but want to get through what I’ve started before I begin a third. Conquering my mind is far more the engagement than I was hoping it to be. Depression and negative thought take many forms in my head and it is a full time gig to battle the whole thing. My (little) brother in SoCal has offered to and has picked up the same Giants study and we hope to connect in such a way we can study it together. He blessed me deeply to offer to do the study with me; I know how insanely busy he is.

Both kids have shown an interest in an animal army book series…well, actually Missy has but Josh wants to know about what happens so since they have shown an interest in the fantasy stuff, I’ve sought out some D&D books similar to what I had used back in High school but have not gotten into it yet with them because I just haven’t felt right about it yet. I’m holding off until I feel totally alright with bringing the game to their attention, though I’m sure they’d enjoy the role playing and the mathematics is always involved from the beginning and that would be cool for them for school too.

Summer is here, the kids are out of school and I haven’t shaved my head now in several weeks, showing the gray hair and thinning top. I don’t know if I will keep it up, but when last I asked what CC wanted, she said to let it go…so…

My truck is back! TK and Lindy have blessed me and us beyond convenient wording. My dad is having the gaskets taken care of since he can’t get to them physically…another blessing we couldn’t manage without help. Lots of that STILL going around.

My back is aching so it’s time to stop typing and call it a day.
More soon.
Oh yeah, I heard from my cousin in North Carolina today via email and that just made my day! How cool. I’m looking forward to catching up with him now. Seriously cool.

Pray for rest, solid and uninterrupted sleep for both CC and me, among the rest of our usual prayer pleadings you’re used to reading on here.
peaceTuesday, June 12, 2007

I’ve let time go for quite some time now and feel badly that I’ve not kept up better on here, but the blessed news from this is that I’ve NOT been in the hospital or down sick during this absence, but have been living what I would term “near-normal” life. I’ve lost my bearings on really knowing what “normal” is, so I’m working from what I can feel comfortable with and each day hope/pray that I will have a good day and not relent to depression or pain.

We went down to the Bay Area this past Friday/Saturday for my nephew’s graduation from 8th grade. We didn’t have enough time with them but the time we had was really good. Congrats Erik! We also had the chance to check out a recording of him singing in a band he and his friends put together for a talent show, or similar and he fronted it as vocalist. I was very impressed. Very cool.

Slightly worthy of note; CC’s mom, Nana, moved out to an assisted living place near CC’s brother’s home last week. We’ve had her living with us since she was released from the hospital in the South Bay with little expectation she would live through the following next months and we are now into year number four. With her move, my parents came up and helped us with cleaning and stripping what will now be Joshua’s room. He’s excited but concerned at the prospect of having to sleep in a room himself. He doesn’t remember that he had that opportunity back when we moved up here for the first few months we were here.

In order to see if I could “right” my head and thought processes, I went and bought 3 bible studies which I then moved from location to location without opening for 3 or 4 weeks until a week and a half ago I began one by Max Lucado called managing your giants (a study of 1st Samuel; David and Goliath, etc.) and another one on Ruth and Esther who are folks from the Bible who Missy really wanted to learn about, so we began it together as well, but have only gotten into it one chapter so far. Maybe tomorrow…I bought another one on Ephesians but want to get through what I’ve started before I begin a third. Conquering my mind is far more the engagement than I was hoping it to be. Depression and negative thought take many forms in my head and it is a full time gig to battle the whole thing. My (little) brother in SoCal has offered to and has picked up the same Giants study and we hope to connect in such a way we can study it together. He blessed me deeply to offer to do the study with me; I know how insanely busy he is.

Both kids have shown an interest in an animal army book series…well, actually Missy has but Josh wants to know about what happens so since they have shown an interest in the fantasy stuff, I’ve sought out some D&D books similar to what I had used back in High school but have not gotten into it yet with them because I just haven’t felt right about it yet. I’m holding off until I feel totally alright with bringing the game to their attention, though I’m sure they’d enjoy the role playing and the mathematics is always involved from the beginning and that would be cool for them for school too.

Summer is here, the kids are out of school and I haven’t shaved my head now in several weeks, showing the gray hair and thinning top. I don’t know if I will keep it up, but when last I asked what CC wanted, she said to let it go…so…

My truck is back! TK and Lindy have blessed me and us beyond convenient wording. My dad is having the gaskets taken care of since he can’t get to them physically…another blessing we couldn’t manage without help. Lots of that STILL going around.

My back is aching so it’s time to stop typing and call it a day.
More soon.
Oh yeah, I heard from my cousin in North Carolina today via email and that just made my day! How cool. I’m looking forward to catching up with him now. Seriously cool.

Pray for rest, solid and uninterrupted sleep for both CC and me, among the rest of our usual prayer pleadings you’re used to reading on here.

peace